setelah hiatus

wohoho..
lama tak berjumpa..

akhirnya gw menulis lagi.. fuuh.. *sok sibuk bgt yak?*
nothing special.. tapi hasrat gw buat nulis pagi ini (yes. ini pagi. dini hari pukul satu lewat duapuluh) entah kenapa lumayan tinggi, jadi yah mengikuti kehendak hati deh.. :D

gw lagi feeling 'ga banget' akhir-akhir ini.. dan sama sekali ga mood cerita kenapa.

dan gw sedang teramat terkesan dengan 2 buah lagu yang kalo gw ambil pesan moralnya, lumayan jadi penyemangat di hidup gw yang sepi ini. jadi gw posting :)

Little Wonders - Rob Thomas

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made in these small hours
these little wonders, these twists & turns of fate
time falls away, but these small hours,
these small hours still remain..

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to we?ll get by,
it's the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made in these small hours
these little wonders, these twists & turns of fate
time falls away, but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret will wash away some how
but i can not forget the way i feel right now
in these small hours these small hours these little wonders still remain

lagu ini bikin gw semangat lagi. untuk hari kedepan. untuk ga menyesali masa lalu yang gagal. ngasi gw optimisme.

satu lagu lagi dari Michael Buble - Haven't Met You Yet.
lagu ini ga gw posting seluruh liriknya,
tapi ada satu kalimat yang bener-bener gw pikirin dan jadi sumber inspirasi gw.

promise you kid, i give so much more than i get

kata-kata ini lumayan sering gw jadiin acuan buat bersikap lebih baik di kehidupan gw sekarang. menghargai yang gw miliki sebaik-baiknya, mungkin gitu bahasanya. kalau semua orang bisa berfikir dan menerapkan hal kaya gini, gw yakin, semua manusia bisa hidup lebih sejahtera. dan perubahan itu, akan gw mulai dari diri gw sendiri.

satu anak tangga menuju dewasa! :)

sok sok-an berperancis

Miroir de me mentir
Montrez-moi ce que je veux voir
Miroir de me mentir

Pourquoi ne puis-je pas comme la fille que je vois
Celui qui se tient juste en face de moi
Pourquoi dois-je pas pensé avant de parler
J'aurais dû écouter cette voix en moi
Je dois être stupide, faut être fou, doit être hors de mon esprit

***

il ya l'amour? Je me sens seul, tout seul ...

just the girl -the click five

i loved this song, make me smile and laugh :)
u r amazing guys, thx vo cheer me up with ur songs.

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

The way she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

listen here :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDEQt-zHCcI

'it' attack -again

in my life was very simple like this, i hid a lot of trouble, actually.
sometimes many trouble make me difficult to breathing.

because i was a difficult 'open' people, so, much people don't know who really i am, what really i feel, even the people closest to me.

maybe they thought they knew who i was, who was always laughing, always to enjoy my life, indifferent to the situation, as no matter with any problems.

they are wrong.

i just a people who can't talk what i feel in my heart, can't talk about something rather sensitive, people who always trying to hide away and hide things because can not express the feeling. it's sad.
to be honest, i was a very lonely because my character is. yes, i am even ashamed to admit it now.
it is why i have a disease that i call the name of a zombie attack.

sometimes.. i can't feeling. i just can thinking. seemed empty and just nothing.
if it has been like that, i will turn into a very private person, introverted and ignore everything.

i was scared, actually.
i fear a sudden i used to be the not-social like that. i was afraid to be truly such autism.
i need someone i can trust to accompany me out of it all.
but the problem is, i can not say it.
i really wanted to cry.
but the problem is, i've forgotten how to do it.

why did this all happen?
i do not want to, im confused and everything will be chaotic.
i do not want to be a bad people.

im still seventeen and i just want to enjoyed my life with happiness.